It's funny how I react to change these days. I understand it. I know its inevitable. Yet..it still feels foreign.
I grew up moving around a lot, mostly every 3 years. Leaving friends, making new ones. But since I have settled here I've become comfortable to routine, sometimes a little bored, but comfortable. My friends and I are getting older. Jen is teaching in Japan. Zach is in the Navy. Ria is a parole officer and might move next year to the states. Vince comes and goes from the pack. And as the routine between my friends and I starts to fade with everyone slowly going their separate ways I remember a line from a movie "In life you're lucky to have even a few close friends..." and I wonder....will that be me? Will that be us?
I hope not. I pray not. My friends are very much apart of my life and who I've become. I can't imagine my life without them.
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There are people around me that are fantastic artists and I can't help feeling very low in comparison. I daydream about having this exceptional talent. And I hope one day it isn't a dream anymore. Drawing, painting, flute, sax, guitar. I've done all of it, but I was only "ok". Even right now I'm finding myself in a slump with my photography.
i feel gloomy.
I grew up moving around a lot, mostly every 3 years. Leaving friends, making new ones. But since I have settled here I've become comfortable to routine, sometimes a little bored, but comfortable. My friends and I are getting older. Jen is teaching in Japan. Zach is in the Navy. Ria is a parole officer and might move next year to the states. Vince comes and goes from the pack. And as the routine between my friends and I starts to fade with everyone slowly going their separate ways I remember a line from a movie "In life you're lucky to have even a few close friends..." and I wonder....will that be me? Will that be us?
I hope not. I pray not. My friends are very much apart of my life and who I've become. I can't imagine my life without them.
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There are people around me that are fantastic artists and I can't help feeling very low in comparison. I daydream about having this exceptional talent. And I hope one day it isn't a dream anymore. Drawing, painting, flute, sax, guitar. I've done all of it, but I was only "ok". Even right now I'm finding myself in a slump with my photography.
i feel gloomy.
no worries lani, we are BFFFFFFFFF! That's a lot of forevers....
love you!
Posted by
jen |
4:33 PM
"There are people around me that are fantastic artists and I can't help feeling very low in comparison. I daydream about having this exceptional talent. And I hope one day it isn't a dream anymore."
I know exactly how you feel. I feel that way every second of every day——especially when browsing the galleries of other photographers. In fact, I feel that way when looking at your photos. You are very talented, and you take very beautiful photos. I'm browsing your flickr gallery right now, and I am very impressed.
Posted by
shiftis |
4:46 PM